Saturday, February 18, 2012

1st Week Back @ Work

This week I had to go back to My maternity leave has officially ended. I still am in shock that it went by so fast. 
The first day was by far the hardest: dropping her off at daycare (with a bunch of strangers) and then trying to have a productive day isn't easy at all. I defiantly cried on my drive to work and then when I got to work I found one of Elle's pacifiers in my coat pocket, which made me miss her again. The day was slow, but after it was over, I sped home and picked her up at daycare. They said she had a good day and was very giggly so that made me feel better about sending her there. Each day got easier when it came to dropping her off in the mornings and picking her up everyday is the best. She is always so happy to see me and that makes my day. :) 

On Friday, Chad was off of work so it was a "daddy daycare" day. He got to spend the whole day with her and the best part...he surprised me by bringing her in for a visit at my work. It just made my day :)

Monday, February 6, 2012

Oh Mastitis!

It's official, I have Mastitis. Mastitis is an infection in the boobies that women can get while breastfeeding/pumping. My doctor explained to me that it usually happens when you get a plugged milk duct and an infection builds up behind it. 

The reason I was concerned that "something" was wrong was because this past Saturday through Tuesday I had a fever ranging from 100°F all the way up to 104°F. I had the chills and sweats and my body ached. Also pumping was overly painful those few days. On Friday, I had my 6 week postpartum check up with Dr. Brandes, so I mentioned all this to her and she said it's mastitis. Luckily, she was able to prescribe antibiotics for it and said hopefully in a week all should be back to normal. Besides the antibiotics, she said breastfeeding and pumping through the infection will help clear it out of my system faster (and she reassured me that I don't need to worry about infecting the baby). 

I'm about halfway through my antibiotics, and my fever is completely gone now for a couple of days. I still hurt quite a bit but hopefully in the last few days of this antibiotic that will go away too. 

Oh mastitis I hope I never get you again!

Friday, February 3, 2012

Baby Tears=Worst Thing Ever!

Well they are here....Ellery's tears when she cries. :'( You know how I said catching her smiling is the best feeling ever, well seeing big, wet tears slide down the side of her face when she is crying is officially the worst feeling ever. It just makes her cries seem that much more real and it really shows how sad she is.

Last night (6 weeks 1 day old) was the first night I have seen these tears appear. She was crying because she was sooooo tired (she hadn't slept all day) and just couldn't seem to fall asleep. You could tell how frustrating it was for her and nothing seemed to calm her down. We were at the Mahdi's house just hanging out and she just started to cry. So we tried her nook, tried to feed her, tried to walk around their house with her, tried burping her, changed her...nothing seemed to help and actually with the more things we tried the more upset she got. Her face got all red, her body got all hot and sweaty and she just screamed at the top of her lungs! I felt bad because we couldn't figure out how to just get her to relax and sleep, but then I saw it. Under her little eye lashes, big tears started to gather, and then one rolled down the side of her pudgy cheek. :'( It broke my heart. Poor little girl.

Eventually she did calm down and instantly went to sleep but oh those tears broke my heart the rest of the night.